Love At Last

Guilty

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As I made my way to the house, so many things were going through my mind. How could he do that to an innocent girl? The man I’m in love with was the cause of my demise? Why is life so cruel to me? Should I have just ended it all and not have to had gone through all of this torture? Nah, let me not assume, dad might have lied to get me to stay away from Cayden. He’s been a very sweet person to me, why throw all that away? Let me get to him first anyway.

I rang the doorbell as I reached the house, and Cayden came to get it.

“Lily? What are you doing here?” He asked but I didn’t answer. I barged in angry and he noticed but seemed like he wasn’t ready for any of that. He walked ahead of me into his room. He was packing his things, seems he was already making plans to go.

“Stop that right now Cayden,” I said, bringing out the clothes from the box

“Why are you stopping me?”

“I have some questions for you Cayden”

“Okayyy?”

“Is it true that you’re the reason I was sent to Nedford? The reason I was emancipated from my parents and that always had a baby mama, planning to get married and run away with her?”

I waited for a response but I didn’t get any. His eyes were teary like that of a guilty person. I couldn’t believe what was happening

“Talk Cayden! Tell me it’s not true, please… ” My voice broke badly, my heart was broken to a thousand pieces.

“I…I… I’m sorry Lily. It’s true but the part about always having a baby mama and getting married isn’t true” his voice broke as tears ran down his cheek

I was stunned. Cayden went to his knees and was crying. He was so ashamed and I felt so much pain like never before, just as much as being thrown out.

“Lily, I’m so sorry. I promise I didn’t know you that period and I thought it was the right thing to do at that time.”

“Oh my Goodness, you irritate me right now. I don’t even recognize you anymore. Are you that heartless? Not knowing me isn’t an excuse Cayden. It doesn’t give you any right to separate a child from the privileges of a parent. Is being pregnant not enough for you to be remorseful and advise a father otherwise?” I was in so many tears “there’s no difference between yourself and my dad. You only care about your image, and what the press would say. You made me move out of my parent’s place at a very young age, to cater for a child and fend for myself at a young age” I sniffed, “if not my grandma I would have been all alone Cayden, all alone.”

I moved towards him”I can’t believe I fell in love with someone as inconsiderate and heartless as you. No wonder nothing goes well with us. Whenever things start to go well, something always goes wrong. From the jump, you’ve brought me nothing but pain even before I met you; isn’t that a curse?”

“I’m sorry Lily. I know I’ve been a terrible person but I promise I’ve realized my mistake and I’m not that person anymore. You’ve got to believe me, Lily. I’m sorry. I’ll never hurt you intentionally. ”

I didn’t even know what to say anymore. I was emotionally downcast. All I could do was cry. Cayden was crying too. The whole thing was a mess. My face was soggy and swollen, it was an ugly picture.

“Seeing how much I was going through every day just to give my son a good life, seeing how much hustle I went through with my grandma, wasn’t that enough for you to have compassion and confess your sins Cayden? Did you enjoy seeing us suffer? Did it fuel your happiness? Everything I did was to try to build a good life and I brought you into that life to share it with me”

“How selfish are you Cayden? Huh? How selfish are you???” I said as I hit him on the chest continuously, but he eventually stopped me and put my hands down.

“I’m sorry Lily, I know I won’t be able to apologize enough for all the wrongs I’ve committed against you. I was just doing my job then. I was a heartless, proud and insensitive playboy. I can’t compare the man of them to this one right in front of you. Your dad just wanted something that would protect his image. I never thought he’d abandon you entirely. He was the CEO, he speaks and we listened, we always have to deliver and his image was the only thing that mattered to him and is wanted to keep it without flaws. I advised him to get you out of the way but he should have still made sure that you were taken care of, not that sending you away was the best option anyway and I know that now. Saying this doesn’t make it any better, I know. But I don’t know how else to tell you how sorry I am.”

“I feel like I’m just saying a lot of gibberish. Please Lily, please. I never thought I’d have fallen in love with you. It all happened so fast and I didn’t even know you were his daughter when I got to Nedford. If I had known what I know now, I would not have let that happen. It’s the worst regret of my entire life Lily and I’ll spend however long it takes to make it up to you.

I couldn’t say anything, I was at a loss for words. He was still on his knees and I wanted him to remain that way. It’s nothing compared to what he put me through my whole life; moving to a new town, taking care of a child, finding my own feet? Nah, he had to feel even if it’s just a tip of what I felt.