Healing The 63
Healing The 63
Sihana’s POV
I wasn’t lying when I said I asked Aristo to return to the pack. Although I wasn’t sure I had the authority to undo Cahir’s command, I realized I had sat back and watched for too long and Cahir, it seemed, wasn’t someone I could let continue to do as he pleased. He was an Alpha, he was used to people doing as he asked them to but I didn’t want to live like that.
Someone had to take the first step in this relationship and I had been too scared to do it all along. expecting to receive the same hatred I had received all my life but this time, since our misunderstandings had been cleared up, I should at least try.
“Sihana” He started in a grave voice. An unfamiliar expression flickered in his eyes as I stood facing him with my hands on my hips. I swallowed, feeling heat at the back of my neck from the heaviness of his
gaze.
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“Cahir–1” My hands shook so I lifted them from my hips and crossed them underneath my chest. “On the island, it was the first time since I felt somewhat close to you like true mates. It was the first time and now Now he was back to being standoffish. If this happened before the trip, I wouldn’t bat a lash but this time, I was worried.
There’s no point in getting closer to me,” he muttered, his eyes flicking back to his work. His tone and movement were dismissive and a part of me wanted to be dismissed but Asena hissed at me to
stand my ground.
‘Don’t let him off the hook! My wolf exclaimed. “We have to find out what’s wrong with him!”
“What do you mean there’s no point getting close to you? We are mates!” I added firmly, pushing forward with all the bravado I could muster. The air around us was starting to get chilly and I sensed his mood. dropping with each tickle second. I should abort the mission but I didn’t want to. I had to understand what
went wrong.
One minute we were the picture of a happy couple and the next, he froze up and acted distant. I knew I wasn’t the problem so I didn’t beat myself up with nonsensical thoughts like I used to do but still, I had to know the issue.
Cahir ignored my presence, examining a stack of papers before him.
“Let me ask you something It was a dangerous move but it was the first thought that came to mind. I was going to provoke a response out of him. “Do you regret mating with me?” I asked. His eyes snapped up to mine and I swallowed through a thick lump.
He held my gaze for a second, then two. Could he hear my heart beating out of control in my chest? Did he know I would rather he not answer that question? The fear that gripped me after the question slipped from my lips had me berating myself. Why did I have to ask such a sensitive question? What if he confirmed my doubts? After all, up until two days ago. Iregretted mating with him. I regretted coming here and I regretted letting lust rule me to the point where I committed my life to a man like this.
“Yes,” Cahir answered my question, his eyes lifting to hold mine. I tried to speak after those words but my throat closed around my words. Bile rose inside me and a familiar sensation choked me-
anguish.
It was so easy to believe I didn’t need to convince myself that he hated that we were shackled together… lifetime of insecurities sprang to the forefront to choke me. The words I had heard several times – words of those that herated me that told me I was delusional I would never he loved the voices that laughed in
my face after every cruel prank played on me by the members of Silver Moon pack, those voices started to shout in my head, their laughter ringing in my ears.
“Mating with you was a mistake,” he concluded, hitting he final nail on the coffin.. Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
It was so easy to believe but he was lying.
Not a hundred percent certain that the slight evasion of my gaze meant anything, my heart still beat from my stomach and my throat still felt too tight to speak but I forced myself to. Perhaps I was in the mood to get my heart broken or maybe I just wanted to get words out of him. Nevertheless, I continued on my mission to provoke a response out of him.
“There’s a way to correct your mistake.” I muttered, averting my gaze like him. “If it’s a mistake, then your won’t mind breaking the mate bond.”
Breaking a mate bond is impossible. Don’t talk nonsense.” The words fell from his lips in a split second, his tone harsh and the air around us turning to frost.
“We can try,” I muttered, kicking my feet and rubbing my exposed forearm. It looks could kill, I would be buried under ice by now. I couldn’t bear to look up at him but I felt his eyes burning into me.
“Sihana Asena Armani – I cut him off.
“Montreal. I am a Montreal –“The freezing air heated and beads of sweat congregated atop my lying lips.
“Don’t you –” He started with a growl then paused. Silence reigned in the office for a second before I raised my head to look at him. “Are you trying to get a rise out of me?” I shrugged, looking away from his eyes that flashed the red of his wolf.
“I almost fell for that.” I heard him sigh.
Movement caught my eye and made me raise my head again. He pushed out of his seat and came to stand beside me. His hand cupped my neck and his thumb went to rest on my mating mark. Electricity zinged through me but I swallowed down the sultry sound about to choke me.
“Don’t ever say that to me again,” he said, his tone leaving no room for argument as his thumb continued to stroke the side of my neck. “Don’t push me, belle.”
“You did it first.” I mustered the courage to look up at him when the suffocating scent of danger in the air subsided. I had to crane my neck to see his face and the expression he had on was inscrutable. “You said you regretted our bond.” As I said the words, I felt my heart beat speed up again. At this rate, this man
could give me a heart attack.
It was an insult to our wolves for him to say something like that but he said it so casually that it was almost believable.
“Do you believe that?” Curiosity rang in his tone. “I want you.” His thumb left my neck to graze my bottom. lip.
Yes, I knew he wanted me. The goddess failed me in many ways but she at least made me easy on the eye. I wasn’t unfamiliar with being lusted after. I knew Cahir wanted me, mate bond or not, but the problem – I knew he didn’t need me. He’d told me before that Alpha Blood had functioned fine without a Luna, and although I knew now that he hadn’t meant it in the way I took it, I knew he was right. He didn’t need a Luna. He handled his life perfectly well all these years and since I came into his life, the only thing I had done was
nothing.
“You’re forgetting that he already closed two deals in our name, Asena growled at me.
Yes, the deals with Manz Island and Silver Moon were thanks to me but they were things he would have found a way to acquire on his own.
Cahir wanted me but I wanted him to need me.
“What are you thinking?” His voice brought me back to reality.
His hand fell to his side and I instantly missed the warmth of his palm. I wanted to snuggle up against him like we had done throughout our stay on the island but things were different in this pack. I had to find out why.
“If I tell you what I am thinking, will you tell me what’s wrong with you?” I demanded. He gave me a blank look for a second before taking a step back. He didn’t want to tell me that much was obvious but I had decided a few hours ago that I would do my best to bridge the communication gap between us. It was too early for me to give up my vow.
“1” He started, raking a hand through his hair. “I hate Alpha Blood.”
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