she loves you
Flashback continues
Alex’s point of view
It’s been half an hour and Mira is just watching television. She is not in the mood to speak about anything.
“I think it would be good” I placed a cup of coffee for her and she accepted it with a smile. What happened all of a sudden that she felt to hide it from me? I could read on her face that she doesn’t want me to discover anything. She even disconnected her mom’s call.
We got distracted by a sudden sound and there was her mom standing with the most terrific look on her face. I look at Mira, who had the same terrified expression. What is with these ladies?
“Aunty, why are you looking so tensed?” I stood up to grab her but Mira came in-between and grabbed her mom.
“Mom, we shall go home.” She spoke spontaneously as if saving her mom to meet me. Would I eat her alive or what?
“Why? I thought you left home and you are planning to live here.” Her mom’s words shook me. They seem to fight with intense hatred. I didn’t see them like this ever.
“Aunty, relax and take a seat. We shall talk it out.” The moment I said those, aunty looked at me with some intense glare. Is she angry? No. Is she trying to tell me something? No. She looked hurt. Is it because of me? What a day, man? I want to sleep here.This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.
“What happened?” I asked directly not beating around the bush. Mira’s mom started crying closing her mouth the moment I asked her.
“Please Alex. Leave it.” Mira begged. She wanted to hide this from me. It’s all visible in her actions. But aunty is firm in telling everything.
“You knew that we are from a very conservative family. I can’t believe that my daughter can do this” Aunty’s words now confuses me. Mira is always very caring towards her mom’s thoughts. Her mom struggled a lot to fight with her family to let Mira study what she wished for. Mira never had a friend because that would cost her her education. I became her friend through Shreya aunt. Her mom only knew me. Mira felt so free with me and Edward. She often hated to go back to her country, India back then. But she always makes sure to follow their rules and was the most obedient daughter I have ever seen.
“Mom, please. Don’t tell Alex. He has no connection in this matter” Mira’s voice broke my chain of thoughts.
“Anything I can help? ” I asked voluntarily, wanting to help Mira. Now my sleep also said goodbye to me.
“Stay away from her if you want to help.” Her mom’s words shook me. I stood there shocked and couldn’t form any words to even question her. What does it even mean?
“Mom, if you tell him, I will never come back to our home” Her mom seemed to not care about Mira’s words as she was just staring at me to complete her sentence.
“She loves you.” Her mom snapped at me as I froze to the spot. That cannot be possible. Mira always made clear that she will never go against her family who is very concerned about their religion and customs. I looked at Mira to scream that it was not true. But she closed her eyes as if she felt so ashamed to get exposed like this. She felt so powerless to stand in front of me like this. I felt guilty all of a sudden. But what did I do?
Did I give hope to her? Am I the reason?
“But it is not the matter.” Her mom continued as I am not even recovered from the first shock. What else is remaining?
“She wants to separate you from your wife.” My brain stopped working for a moment to process the words. Mira widened her eyes as she looked at her mom. I stood there like a guest watching them as I don’t have any words to tell them.
“Did you believe her words?” Mira asked her mom as she took back steps. She hit the wall and the tears were flowing like a river. I massaged my temples.
“Guys relax. I don’t know what happened. But don’t blame anyone. Aunty, can you please calm down first.” I spoke as I know that aunty always talks rubbish whenever she is angry. Mira, breaking marriage. Aunty must be drunk now.
“This is what your wife told my mom” I am not even shocked this much by the first news. Mira screamed and collapsed closing her face with her palm.
“She said those things because she felt unsafe with your presence in their life. ” Her mom screamed more than her. Okay, now my migraine is back and it’s worse this time. Why are they involving Clara now? She can never do such things.
“I don’t know why you both feel this way. But Clara has no work in this conversation.” I felt to protect her in this mess. Yes, this is a mess for sure.
“Okay, hear this out then” Mira stood up wiping her tears.
“I just felt so special with you whenever we spend time together. Yes, I love you. Not today or yesterday. It’s right since when I was just 10. But i didn’t dare to confess to you as the reasons are obvious. My mom and dad won’t accept it. And i can’t go against them. I wanted to keep this a secret till my last breath. Thanks to your wife, it’s known to all. My mom, you, everyone. ” Mira spoke gulping her sadness. I felt terrible knowing too many details. Why does this have to turn out like this? I felt my eyes teared up immediately. I loved Mira like a friend and always wanted the best for her. Never in my dreams, did I think she would be broke one day because of me. I slowly walked toward her to hug her.
“It’s not your mistake” I spoke as I soothingly stroked her hair. I didn’t care what her mom would think. All I care is about Mira now.
“And trust me. Clara would never do this. How can she know that you have feelings for me when I have no idea? Even then, she would at least come to me not that she would go around to tell people like this” I tried to make her understand. She gently pushed me dejectedly.
“She messaged my mom. I have never shared with anyone that I love you. I don’t have reason to suspect anyone than her. Because she knew that I love you” That was a blow to me. Clara knew this?
“Trust whatever you feel like. But you should check her dressing table drawer before coming to any conclusions. I saw that when I came here a few days back.” Mira left the home as her mom too followed her. I sat there for a few minutes to recall my good times with Mira. She is just like me, I don’t know the exact word but I know how important she is. I have never thought that she would be hurt because of me. It was a terrible feeling.
What is that on the dressing table? Clara always locked it. I tried to open it but couldn’t find the keys. I have spare keys but never used that. Today I took it and opened that. I saw a pink diary. I opened that and my heart stopped seeing Mira’s diary there. Did Clara know before? I opened it and saw all the phone numbers. Her mom’s phone number too. I don’t want to read the diary as it would tear me if I come to know how much Mira loved me. I can’t bear the thing.
That is not my concern now. My heart pained seeing how Clara kept it hidden from me. Why didn’t she tell me? My throat went dry indicating that it’s been hours since I had even water. My eyes blurred with heaviness. I need rest.
There were so many questions in my head.
No one knew about Mira’s love for me.
Clara knew.
No one has her mom’s number.
Clara could have taken it from this diary.
Everything sets perfectly. But I can’t suspect my jaan for sure. She can never do this. She can come to me if she ever feels insecure. Did she? Didn’t I show her how much she means to me?
“Can you come here? There is a problem here” I send the message to her. I don’t want to talk to her as I don’t know if she says that she knew this, I might lose my temper which I don’t want to do with her ever again. She doesn’t know. That’s what I want to believe.
Did Mira keep the diary herself? But why does she do this? This will destroy her only. Moreover, I knew that Mira can never do such things. Neither Clara.
I felt like smashing my head somewhere.