Chapter 55 – Discovering the truth
ETHAN POV
A DAY EARLIER
I was done with the day’s work and decided to head home. I haven’t been myself ever since the doctor’s result about my ability to have a child.
The realization makes my heart ache whenever I think of it. The fact that I maltreated and blamed Monica for our inability to have a child for years makes me want to creep into a hole and hide there forever.
Every memory of my harsh words and cold behavior feels like a knife twisting in my gut. I was so desperate for a child that I was blinded to see the pain, emotional hurt, and suffering I was inflicting on her.
I can’t even stand erect and stare at her eyes. She was always supportive and would always smile at me but I always have her cold shoulders. She didn’t get pregnant because I wasn’t capable of getting her pregnant and not because she couldn’t get pregnant.
This guilt presses heavily every day on my shoulders reminding me of my past mistakes and failures as a husband.
Soon enough, I got home and walked in to see an unexpected visitor sipping my best wine from his wine cup with his legs folded. “Jason?” I asked, the figure slowly turning himself to me and revealing himself “Jason” I said again as my once dull eyes shone with happiness.Text © by N0ve/lDrama.Org.
“Hey man I’m back,” Jason said, his hands widely spread as he walked towards me with a big smile on my face “I missed my buddy,” he said as he finally came close to me and engulfed me in a warm tight hug.
“It’s so good to see you. How long have you been back?” I asked, wanting to hear all about him at least something to get my mind off my current predicament and misery.
Jason was my best friend and family doctor. We went to the same university and from there, our relationship blossomed into something tight and trustworthy. He left a year ago to go further his studies in Germany and now, he was back.
He broke the hug “Just a few weeks. I’ve missed you and everyone in this house. I missed the cook food and I also missed Monica’s pancakes. Speaking of Monica, where is she? I’ve been asking the maids about her but they seem to suddenly go mute whenever I ask about Monica” My smile instantly dropped as his words brought back the lingering sadness in my heart.
“Monica isn’t here. We’re not together anymore”
“Not together anymore? What do you mean?” He asked.
“Look man, a lot has happened since you left and I don’t think I can tell you everything today. I’m just glad that you’re around. Life hasn’t been fair with your buddy” I said, my voice tinged with weariness.
“You can start from somewhere Ethan. You talk as if Monica is dead or is she dead?” he asked, fear evident in his eyes.
“No of course she is not,” I said instantly, clearing his negative thoughts. “But things have been tough. I and Monica are no longer together. We got a divorce” I said, running a hand through my hair as the guilt of how I treated her haunted me.
“I’m sorry man. I wish I were here for you. I didn’t know things were this bad. I lost your phone number and I couldn’t call you throughout my stay in Germany. I’m sorry about everything” I looked at Jason whose eyes stared at me with concern.
“Well, it’s all in the past. I was the one who wanted a divorce and every day of my life, I keep on seeing a reason to regret my actions” I uttered sadly.
“What?” He yelled in shock Why would you do that? You divorced her even when she was pregnant?” Jason said, his eyes widened.
“Pregnant?” I said, sadness instantly evaporating from my mind as shock took over “Monica was pregnant”
“Yes, man. What’s with this expression on your face? You want to tell me you didn’t know Monica was pregnant?” Jason asked, staring at me in disbelief.
“I didn’t know Jason. I had no idea” I said, defending myself.
“What! She didn’t tell you? How the hell is it possible that your wife was pregnant and you didn’t know? What the f**k man” Jason said, disbelief evident on his face.
“I wasn’t aware and maybe she tried to tell me but I never listened to her. I was always at work or with Mia and I rarely spent time with Monica so I think she_”
“Hold up! Wait a minute. You mean Mia, like Mia, your housekeeper?” Jason asked in disbelief and the sad expression on my face made him freeze on his spot “What the heck Ethan? Mia is very desperate and cunning and I remember telling you to stay away from her and you let her back into your life. Why would you choose your ex over your wife?”
I ran my head through my hair again as I sighed in frustration. This new revelation just made things worse as the Guilt, sadness, and regret washed over me.
“Where is she now?” Jason asked.
“She is married, man. She got married to Nicholas Sterling” I responded.
“You mean Nicholas Sterling of Sterling group?” I nodded my head at Jason’s question and he looked at me in disappointment “Oh man I’m sorry to say this but you f****d up. You lost her and you lost your kids. How could you allow mia come between you and Monica? I warned you about allowing Mia back into your life but you didn’t listen” Jason said as he walked to the table and gulped his wine at once.
“It’s all my fault. I never treated her right and I hurt her so much”
“You have to see Monica Ethan. You have to talk to her and ask about the babies. She was pregnant when she came to the hospital and I confirmed it with the results that she was two months pregnant. You guys have to talk” Jason said, his voice laced with disappointment.
“I feel so stupid and ashamed of myself ” I muttered under my breath as I closed my eyes, sadness lingering and sinking in deeper in my heart.