Chapter eighteen- Unbearable Pain
Myra’s POV
When I arrived home I went straight to my room. While changing my clothes, I consciously spot our picture frame attached to the wall. Blithe was so visible on my face in that portrait that I was super duper happy as a new wife that just finished exchanging marital vows with the love of her life. Meanwhile, my husband’s face showed a manifestation of irritation.
I smiled bitterly, reminiscing about our nuptial day. I felt overjoyed on that day knowing I’ll be intertwined with the man I love, I was once dreaming of having a loving husband and a happy family
Nevertheless, fate was cruel and brutal, the total opposite of what I desired in my marriage. Beads of sweat formed on my forehead and I felt like I was being engulfed in the darkness, no matter how I tried, there was simply no escape.
Feeling really tired, I sat down and closed my eyes as I rested my pounding head on the couch. I gently rubbed small circles over my temple to ease the rising headache, but it looked like the headache was inevitable.
It’s been almost a year since I got intimate with my husband. My first and last night of intimacy with him was on our wedding night. Which resulted in Aria’s pregnancy.
” Does he no longer find me attractive or he only wanted to get me pregnant?”
“How could he be so goddamn perfect yet vicious ”
I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I can’t stop yearning for him, I have tried to fight the urge, tried to forget it but each time I remember how his touch felt, his tender kisses, and the way he held and adore my body that night like I’m some precious gem, I can’t help but love him more. I took in lungfuls of air as I tried to calm my heart that was galloping with the speed of a hundred thousand horses.
“What do I do?” I said close to tearing up as I facepalm myself
“I thought that since he was the one that took my virginity it will make him cherish and adore me but why does he look at me with disgust as if my presence irritates him”
” Guess true love comes with a lot of pain”
” When he complimented me in the elevator his eyes were filled with some kind of emotions and desire hard to decipher unlike the cold stares I’m used to, he has never complimented my looks before, and the way he was staring at me sealed my breath away making my heartbeat reverberate.”All content is property © NôvelDrama.Org.
I was tired, my hopes were shattered, and I thought he has changed, that finally, he will love and adore me like his wife. I must have been a fool to take his compliment to heart.
” Does he not care about my feelings, how can he talk down to me in front of his client, it’s so obvious he doesn’t regard me as his wife” I mumbled slowly with tears brimming my eyes.
His words were so hurting, so heartbreaking that for the first time, I questioned my feelings. Damn, I have been suffering from a tender age. All I wanted was for him to love me right to make up for all those years I went through hell.
” Why can’t the universe favor me, how long will I keep on wallowing in pain,” I whispered, my unbearable pain wasn’t allowing my voice to come out.
My heart has been smashed to pieces, and my hopes have been shattered. The pain was unbearable, it crushed me in a million parts leaving me incapable of everything. The tears won’t roll down, and the screams won’t escape past my quivering lips.
What was I thinking that a man of his rank would ever love a destitute orphan like me, I might be his wife on the paper but not his heart. I doubt if he’s capable of falling in love.
The thing is even though we are living together on the same roof, we’re still strangers. We don’t even share the same bedroom as married couples.
” Why does he hate me so much that he can’t even stay close to me?”And if staying away is what he wanted, then why did he marry me? I sighed knowing the answer to that last question. How can I possibly care so much for someone that hates everything about me?
I don’t know how it happened but he already had me wrapped up in his fingers. I can’t even leave even if I want to, because I am already helplessly in love with him
Yes… I know it’s crazy but that’s the real truth, I’ve fallen so hard that I can’t even imagine not being a part of his life. That will be scary.
I coiled myself in a bun and cried till I couldn’t cry anymore. My tears had dried up as the only thing I could do was hiccup, it was already 11. 30 pm and he was not yet home. I was getting worried, I know I was angry with him but that does not mean I want to see him in danger.
I searched for my phone in my purse and then remembered I left it on top of the kitchen cabinet, I hurriedly went downstairs when I got to the kitchen I noticed that the chef was still tidying up and I instructed her to prepare a fresh orange juice while I grab my phone and move to the dining section.
I dialed Damian’s number but he didn’t pick on the first ring. When I tried it again I noticed he had turned off his phone. Then I decided to call his secretary Jack to find out his whereabouts but I was sad when I called and it went to a voicemail asking me to leave a message. I sighed and ended the call and the chef came and served me the juice and I thanked her and then took a sip.
Just then my phone rang and I noticed it was an unknown caller, I picked up immediately thinking it was Damian or Jack calling but I was disappointed when I heard the voice and it wasn’t a familiar one.
” Hello beautiful” came the voice from the other end
” Hello who’s this” I inquired
” It’s me, Marcus I know you are surprised” and he chuckled
” Ohhh!!! Yeah but I thought it was someone else” I said
” Smiles” Are you expecting anyone?? Ohh!! What about your hubby is he not home?” he asked
” Not yet but he will soon be back,” I said wishing my lies turns into a reality
” Does he stay out that late? And have you tried calling” he asked
” Not really, he only stays out late when he’s working late in the office but he will soon be back.” I have already spoken with him. I lied again but why is he interested in Damien was that why he called, it’s more like he’s interrogating me. I murmured
As if he felt my discomfort he sighed and changed the topic and said the reason why he called was to check on me and find out if I’m okay.
” That’s very sweet of you, thank you I’m fine” I answered cheerfully
” Myra, I want to invite you to a dinner date. There is a new restaurant in town, and they make the best roasted spicy shrimp. Please don’t say no and it will also be the best chance for me to meet your daughter.” he implored
” Uhmm, should I go or not, fidgeting with my fingers and not sure of the right answer, I have not gone out on a dinner date with someone else, it has always been my best friend Sonia.
It’s a friendly date so it’s not bad if I decide to go right, but what if Damian finds out?”
” I’m waiting” came a subtle voice from the other end
” What if Damian finds out, I don’t want to enrage him at the same time I can’t continue being scared of him”
” Fine!! Okay!! I’m in, just text me the name of the restaurant and time then I will meet you up” I replied
“Great!!! But you won’t be driving, you’re coming with an infant so I will send my chauffeur to your place and we can go together” he said heartily
“Together,” I inquired what if Damian misunderstands
“Yeah, it’s safe that way so I will be sure you got home safely after dinner, and it’s the best thing to do since baby Aria will be joining us, Myra, I want to be sure you guys are safe that’s my priority.”
” Mmm” I muttered why I do have a weird feeling about this dinner date
” Okay beautiful” See you tomorrow by 7. 00 pm
” Beautiful” please Marcus I’m not comfy with the endearing names, Myra will do just fine okay,” I said
” Okay” See you tomorrow then he chuckled before ceasing the call.
Could it be possible, he still has feelings for me?? I shook my head. It’s not possible, maybe he was just being friendly. How did he get my digit? I recalled attaching my number to the file I gave his secretary in case they wanted to inquire about anything from the meeting.
How did he come to know about Aria and even mentioned her name? What’s happening?
Is it possible that Marcus has been stalking me… I rubbed my forehead, tomorrow I will definitely find out the truth.
I glanced at my phone, it was past midnight and I had to get some sleep so I stood up from the chair and headed to my bedroom.
“What a day”!!!