CHAPTER EIGHTY TWO
Liam couldn’t provide her with any answer, he just kept on staring at her like she wasn’t talking to him.
After waiting for a response for a few seconds, Tiffany left him alone, and she sat on the bed with Alyssa.
Tiffany moved closer to Alyssa, and she took her slim and frail looking hand into her’s.
Alyssa looked ten years older than her age. Tiffany noticed, and she sniffed. She really hated watching her loved ones in pain.
She looked around, and saw that Timothy was the only one that would provide her with the answers that she needed, so she called him to move closer to her.
“Tell me, what’s wrong with mummy?” She said in a babyish voice, and Timothy looked at his mother before shaking his head.
The boy didn’t think anything was wrong with his mother, because Liam had told him that the mother was sleeping.
“She has been sleeping since… since.” Timothy managed to say, and Tiffany stared at him with wide eyes. She couldn’t believe that Alyssa had been in that position for a while, and she didn’t know about it.
She started feeling really guilty, because she felt like she should have been there for her best friend.
“When did she go into a coma?” She asked, and without directing the question to anyone, even though Liam knew that Tiffany wanted him to reply.
Liam released his hands from his chest, and he cleared his throat before speaking.
“Last week. She went into a coma last week.” Liam quietly said, and Tiffany swallowed.Exclusive content © by Nô(v)el/Dr/ama.Org.
Alyssa had been in a coma for a week already? Wow. She thought, and sighed loudly.
When she was coming back from her honeymoon, she felt really anxious to get home and see her best friend. She didn’t know that so many things were already happening at home.
“Oh God.” Tiffany whispered to herself, and she started blinking really fast, so the tears that were threatening to stream down her face, would go back. She really didn’t like crying in front of anyone that wasn’t Alyssa… or Ryan.
Tiffany continued holding on to Alyssa’s hand, it got to a point, and she raised Alyssa’s hand to her lips. She planted a soft kiss on it, and closed her eyes.
She was in pain. God, she really was. She also knew that Alyssa was also in pain, that even made her feel more pain.
She really hated watching her best friend lying in bed without disturbing her ears with unnecessary gossip.
At that moment, she would do anything to hear Alyssa speak to her again. She would kill to hear her laugh again.
God, she would lay her life for her if she could. That was how much Tiffany loved Alyssa, it really was.
Tiffany left Alyssa’s hand, and she held onto her chest. The way her heart was clenching against her chest, was making breathing hard for her, and she feared that she wouldn’t be in the same position as Alyssa.
“No, no. No!” Tiffany started saying, while shaking her head repeatedly. The tears that were welling up in her eyes won, and they started streaming down her face without control.
Tiffany didn’t make an effort to wipe them off again, she was tired of holding them in. Alyssa needed to know how much pain seeing her in that position caused her.
Ryan wanted to go to her and comfort her, to tell her that Alyssa was going to be fine, but he didn’t even believe his own words.
He didn’t know if… if Alyssa was ever going to be okay, if she was ever going to be the same Alyssa – the one everyone loved, except the person she loved the most in the world of course, Liam.
He looked away from Tiffany, and his gaze fell on Timothy. His eyes were void of emotions, but Ryan knew that the boy was dying inside.
At that age, seeing his mother in that state, would do so much damage to him, damage that only one’s mother could solve.
“Come.” Ryan said to Timothy, and the boy slowly walked to him. Immediately he got to Ryan, he carried him, and the boy buried his face into Ryan’s back.
Ryan didn’t know if the wetness that he was feeling at the back of his shirt was from his sweat… or from the boy’s silent tears.
Tiffany continued crying silently, and she suddenly stood up from the bed. She just couldn’t take it any longer.
If she had stayed with Alyssa for a few more seconds, she would have passed out on the spot.
“I’m going to bed.” Tiffany said to no one in particular, and she instantly left the room after that.
Liam watched her as she left the room in sadness and… anger? He wasn’t sure at all.
A minute later, Ryan also left without saying anything to Liam. He also left with Timothy, leaving him to his thoughts, and Alyssa.
He sighed, and he walked over to the bed.
When he got to the bed, he didn’t know if he wanted to sit and tell her how much pain he was in, or if he just wanted to stare at her innocent face until it was morning.
Liam settled for the one that would make him sleep properly, and he sat on the bed.
He took her hand into his, and he had a sad smile on his face.
“I don’t like the way people are now treating you like you’re dead, because… I… I know you’re not. My Alyssa isn’t dead, no.” Liam said, and when his voice was breaking, he stopped talking and he started staring out the window.
“You can’t die, you’re still here.” He whispered subconsciously, and he looked back at Alyssa.
For the first time in a very long time, he badly wanted to hear her cocky replies, and awkward smiles. He wanted to hear her shout at him again, and call him a loser.
Hell, he wanted her. HER!
“I am such a monster, am I not?” He started saying, but he stopped to let out a sarcastic laughter to mock himself even more.
“I am. I killed you way before now, I killed you with my words, my actions and… everything. I should’ve known that I was in love with you, and you were in love with me too.” He said, and he looked at her face.
“You know what, now that I think about it, I think I actually knew that we were in love with each other, I just didn’t want to accept it, because… do you know why?” He asked, and took a pause.
“Yes, because I’m a monster. You’re right.” He answered his own question.
Venting out to Alyssa, was the only way he knew that would prevent him from doing something that he had wanted to do for a long time – take his own life.
“Oh, Alyssa. I’m so sorry, my love. I really am.” He said, and he allowed the tears to flow freely down his face.
He couldn’t believe that he was crying at all, he was just happy that nobody was around to see that.
“Okay, okay.” He started saying, but he stopped to wipe his tears.
“Let me make a promise to you now. If you die, I will kill myself and go with you the next minute.” He said, and he smiled at her.
“Do you know why? Because you’re my forever.”
His forever.