CHAPTER TWELVE
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Rose’s POV
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Everywhere was hot. Like I was feeling hot. I squeezed my eyebrows and tossed around on the bed. I was feeling really hot. Like hot.
I turned around to the side of the bed. Then finally, I laid on my back, forcing my eyes open. I looked through the window and saw that it was midnight already. I brought my gaze away from the window and stared blankly at the ceiling.
Beads of sweat dripped down my forehead. I inhaled and exhaled. Repeated it again.
My core was getting wet. Why?
Oh no! Not now. It has not bothered me for the past days now.
I guess I am not free from it. Raising my right-hand, gently making sure it doesn’t come in contact with my skin, I reached out for the jar of water beside me. I swallowed lightly and sat up gently.
I poured the water into a cup and gulped it down within seconds. I licked my lips. I stared down at my body. I was breathing heavily. So heavily.
It has started. As I was about to bring my hand down, it touched my bare laps. I rocked back and moaned.
My pain. My problem.
My uncontrollable s*x drive.
I tried every drugs, medications even cleansing but none helped. To the extent I went broke.
My body was jittery. I needed a man. A man that can satisfy this burning feeling. Even playing with myself won’t sooth me.
I have been facing it since I was in high school. Till today I still was not sure who injected me with it but I was suspicious of Hadley. She was the only one who seemed to hate me though.
My nightgown already gotten soaked because of sweating. I kept breathing heavily. I need a man desperately. I am desperate.
It is painful. Feels like several pins being pushed into your skin at once.
I exhaled loudly and blew air to my skin and this made the hairs on my skin stand on their ends and goosebumps crept on my skin.
I needed a man urgently. I gently placed one of my legs on the floor and the cold floor made it freeze. I winced. I brought the other one down also and stood up gently without my hands touching me.
I staggered my way to the bathroom. Pushed the door open and went in. I went straight to the shower and turned it on.
I shuddered as soon as the cold water came in contact with my skin. I did not pull off my night gown. I let it get soaked.
I was freezing and at the same time feeling got. I did not move; only closed my eyes.
Tears rolled out of my eyes unknowingly. I did all my best in getting rid of it. But could not.
This led me to losing my mate. I did not have anyone to talk to or even confide in.
You must be wondering if I was a wolf. Well, I am wolfless. I was diagnosed and it was found out that either one of my parents was a human or rather I was just wolfless. Or I did not have the wolf genes but I smelled, like I had a scent. That was the reason I was accepted as part of the pack.
After a while of staying under the shower and I felt okay. Not really okay but I was, at least. I stepped out of the shower and shivered.
I was feeling cold. I brought my arms and wrapped around my body and jogged out of the bathroom. I hurriedly pulled off my clothes and brought out a towel from my wardrobe. I wrapped round me.
I pulled out my drawers in search of an ointment. I need to rub it on my body. It was given to me by an herbal expert. I used it. It did not change but she assured me that even though it was not curable, it will be kept at bay.
I stood up and took slow strides towards the window. I stared at sky with faint light from the stars. It was darker this night. Even the moon was dim. I heaved a sigh.
I could hear the chirping of crickets and squeaking of shrews from my room. I threw my head back and stretched out my bones before walking to the bed.
I stared at it for a while then laid on it.
Hope sleep comes…
**NEXT MORNING**
“Good morning, Rose.” I heard. It was a tiny little voice that could have gone unheard if not for my sense of gripping things quick.
I shook my head and rolled over on the bed.
“Rose.” It said faintly again. I squeezed my eyes shot. I sat up gently and looked around for the person who woke me up. I saw no one. Apparently no one is in my room. So why can I hear voice?
I stood up gently and walked around to see if the person was maybe hiding. Searched all through but didn’t see anyone. I smirked and tiptoed to the bathroom, I gently opened the door making sure not to make in hopes of catching whosoever had woken me up. I opened the door and was about to scream at the person but found no one. I stood with confusion written all over my face.
I must have been hearing wrong things since my mate left me. Just frustrated, I guess.
I sighed and walked tiredly to my bed.
Knock! Knock!
“Come in.” I muttered. The door screeched open and Maria came in with a basket in her hands.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
I stared at her looking at her from head to toe.
“Wait, don’t tell me you brought breakfast for me?” I asked.
“Yes, Luna made sure I brought it.” She said and dropped it on a table.
“Ciara told you to bring it for me?” I asked as I opened it.
“She is your Luna. Don’t call her by her name.” Maria said sternly. I shrugged it off.
I have been thinking of how not to get out of the room and thankfully Ciara just helped me.
I smiled at Maria and whispered ‘a thank you’.
“You are welcome. I will take my leave.” She said and smiled a little.
“I won’t see you off.” I said and she opened the door to exit my room.
I stared at the plates of food placed next to me.
“Teeth first.” I smiled and walked to the bathroom.