Not Your Mate Anymore

Chapter 23 Make It Go Away

*Imprint* - When a wolf takes a liking on another and they sink their claws in the wolf to stake their claim. It is almost as marking but the claw mark heals but for that brief moment the two wolves are connected like mates.*

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I was frozen in place. If I was really going in to heat then I was in trouble. Max would soon find out and his wolf will be restless until he finds me.

Knowing Max, he probably still thought of me as his. There had to be a way to get rid of this heat.

"Is there a way I can stop this from happening? Do you have a witch in your pack?" I ask looking up in to Xander's eyes.

"Well yes. You will have to do the deed until your wolf is satiated and no, we don't do witches. You're about as close to a witch as I'll ever get." He says to me and I feel my body drain of all energy.

"He can't find out. If I go into heat, he will feel it and his wolf will have him search everywhere for me." I say and he nods like he understands.

"That he will do. Look, theres only one way around this and that's by having sex. It is the way of the wolf. I suggest you stay in your apartment for the rest of the week." He says to me and I nod in agreement.

I begin to walk back to the pack house and Xander silently follows behind. This explains why I found Xander so irresistible. I mean I was acting a fool not so long ago.

"You know I wasn't paying attention before but now it is stronger. You are definitely in heat." He says and I start to panic. If he can't resist my scent then his wolf will take me right now in this forest and I think I'll let him.

It's not like I was running fast when Xander tackled me. I wanted him to catch me.

"Calm down. I won't do anything to you. Except in my head." He says and I stop to turn and glare at him.

"You're taunting me.." I say and he laughs at me.

"And you're not? I mean your scent is very inviting. Can't blame the poor wolf for trying even if it's just to tease." He says as he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder. He sniffs my bottom and growls.

"Oh Sabrina, if I didn't have to save you from my pack members, I'd try to take you right here, right now." Xander says and I start kicking and screaming.

"Put me down right now Xander!" I say and he spanks my butt.

"That's for not calling me alpha." He says before I could ask and I scoff at him.

He spanks me again and a moan escapes my lips, which earns me another spanking. I'm so lost in the feeling, when he puts me down and I realised we were on my floor, I blushed.

"I see you like it rough...." He says to me with a full out smirk that I want to so badly remove by smashing my lips with his and having his tongue wrestle with mine.

I lick my lips at the thought of his lips on mine and he doesn't miss that action. He moves closer to me as I move back until I hit my back on the door. He rests his arms on each side of my head on the door and growls lowly.

"Lick your lips again..." He orders me and I do it. He didn't even use his alpha tone and yet I obeyed like a sex starved freak.

"What is going on in that head of yours?" He asks me with that husky voice again.

"I'm imagining you naked. I'm also thinking about how good it would feel to smash your lips with mine." I say and he raises his eyebrow at me.

Clearly taken back by my boldness.

"I'm also thinking about our little moment in the woods and how you pressed yourself on to me. You standing here shirtless and in sweats that show the outline of your manhood isn't helping." I say as I brush my hand briefly past his hardness.

He hisses at my contact but then pulls away from me.

"Get inside Sabrina. If we keep going like this, your grandfather will have to kill me because I won't be able to stop myself." He says and I shudder at the thought of him taking me right here.

He turns around and walks away. I stay glued just outside my door until I see a a Male wolf walking up the stairs with his nose up in the air like he's trying to follow a scent. His head turns in my direction and I quickly open my door and shut it.

My grandfather looks at me funny.

"Heat." I say and Dorothy comes running out of my room to lock the door behind me.

"You are not to leave this apartment Sabrina, do you understand me?" My grandfather says and I nod my head.

"Yes the alpha sent me back here. I'll be in my room with Adrastos if anyone needs me." I say but Dorothy and my grandfather share a look.

"Let me look after your son until this heat is dealt with. Trust me, you'll be in so much uhm, you won't have the energy for a newborn baby." Dorothy says as she walks with me to my bedroom and starts packing a bag for the baby.

"Dorothy,why are you packing a bag?" I ask her.

"I figured it would be best if I took the baby with me. I promise to look after him. I will take the baby monitors with me so you can check in when you get the chance." She says to me and fall back on my bed.

"Is it really that bad?" I ask her and she nods at me.

"Oh yes. I suggest you take a bath and get some sleep, when it hits you, it will hit you and you won't be getting any sleep." She says. I place Adrastos in Dorothy's arms after giving him a million kisses as my grandfather walks in to help her with the bags.

"I'll also be leaving today little moon. It seems your nana is back and she wants to fix things." He says and I look at him suspiciously.

"..And before you say anything, please remember that she is my mate and I still love her." He says while pulling me in for a hug and planting a kiss on my forehead.

"Lock all your doors after Margot gets here. Your powers won't heal you on this. You might still have your strength so if any men try their luck, you kick their asses!" He says and walks out of my room.

Just great.

Even my grandfather had to run away. I guess he didn't want to see what a sex starved Sabrina looks like and he would have to fight off every Male wolf here. Oh he was never going to stay.

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Xander's POV

I had her scent all over me and it was driving me crazy. It made me feel like I haven't had sex in a long time and I was hungry. I was hungry for her.

I have never experienced a girl in heat before and it was taking everything in me not to go back and fuck her brains out.

"You left training early.." Lucas says to me as he walks in to my place without knocking.

"Didn't I talk to you about just barging in?" I ask and he just shrugs.

"Anyway, why'd you chase Sabrina in the woods and carry her in to the pack house? Is she here? You know Jade saw it all right?" Lucas points out.

"Why does everyone seem to think Jade and I are an item? I enjoy her company in bed and that's that." I say and Lucas chuckled at my ignorance.

I guess you can't call it that since I'm for sure aware that Jade is in love with me but I've told her on multiple occasions that it will never be for us.

"So?" Lucas asks..

"She's in heat. I had to ask her to lock herself on her floor. I need you to make sure all the Male wolves camp outside tonight. A girl of her strength will emit a scent that's very powerful. No Male in the pack

house will be able to resist it, I couldn't and her heat isn't even at it's peak!" I confess.

"Really? I didn't smell anything." Lucas says. Idiot.

"That's because you were too busy ogling Myrtle. Listen, I need all the Male wolves out of the pack house after breakfast." I say sternly to Lucas.

"I'll do that now then. Go take a cold shower before you do anything stupid." Lucas says to me then running out before I could punch him.

Good advice though.

I hop in the shower and let the cold water rinse away her scent on me. It's too bad I can't wash away all the dirty thoughts in my head.

Her moans when I spanked her. The way she sucked on my finger while looking straight in to my eyes. Her arousal that had me forget about everything and anyone else around us.

Yesterday when she was standing close to me, all I wanted to do after smelling her arousal was bend her over and rip off her clothes. I wanted to taste that so heavenly and sweet scent of arousal and then ram in to her as the desk rattles, creating an even bigger mess than before.

I want to hear her moan one more time. I need to. I looked down to see I was stroking myself thinking about her.

This isn't working so I got out of the shower and dried myself. I wrapped the towel around my waist and walked in to my room to get dressed until a familiar scent took over my senses once again.

She was in my apartment.

"Xander?" Sabrina calls out. Her heat getting stronger and my manhood begging for release and annoyance bubbling inside of me when she used my real name instead of calling me alpha.

"Xander I know you're in here, I just..." She says as she enters my bedroom and freezes when she sees me in nothing but a towel on. Her mouth formed an 'O' as she took me in.

I looked at her and smirked.

"See something you like Sabrina?" I say tugging on the towel around my waist.

"Yes..." she says as her eyes meet mine. She shakes her head.

"Look, I've already had two males knock on my door and I feel it getting stronger. I was able to knock them out but I don't know if I can fight this for long. Can I camp out here? Not one person will dare trespass on your floor." She says.

She was right. My floor was off limits and my pack knew that. Even the shewolves I've slept with know I only hook up when I invite them over.

"And what about me?" I ask her. I was planning on camping out with the Male wolves outside but she didn't know that.

"Please Xander... I don't want to do anything I'll regret." She says, her eyes pleading with me.

Oh damn it!

"All the Males will be camping outside for the day. I don't know how we will manage the entire week but I'll think of something." I say to her and she smiles at me.

My heart does this weird thing.

How could Maximus Forrest be so dense!? This girl was extremely beautiful and not to mention, powerful. Even if she wasn't in heat, my wolf wanted her.

I know my wolf liked the idea of taking her. Max and I never got along when we were younger. He was a little older than me. I worked extra hard to beat his record at alpha training a few months ago since turning 18 and it would be so satisfying to bed her too knowing who she belonged to but I wasn't all beast and contrary to popular belief, I had a heart.

She's been through enough already.

"I'll let you stay here. Alone." I say to her. My father would be pleased I was such a gentleman.

"I'm sorry if I'm making things difficult for you and Jade. Just don't make me fight her again." Sabrina said to me.

"I did that because she was honestly the strongest female fighter in the pack. Obviously I knew she was no match for you but she didn't. Not one person, except for me and you, knew before then what you are capable of. I still don't know the full extent of your power but I'm a patient man. We can test you out next week." I say and she smiles again.

"Well me being in here won't be good for your relationship so I'm sorry." She says.

"Don't worry about that." I say as I look around for some pants to put on. I toss the towel on my bed and put my pants on.

Sabrina quickly turns around and groans out loudly.

"Maybe throw on a shirt too?" She asks and I laugh while putting on my golf shirt.

"All dressed up." I say and she takes a peek before turning around completely to face me. Within seconds her arousal hits my nostrils and my wolf surfaces as my eyes take a darker color.

Sabrina takes a step back as I'm slowly shifting to my beast.

"Stand still Sabrina. We've been through this." I say but she doesn't listen as she continues to take steps back out of my room and quickly turns around to run for the door.

I let out a growl and she shrieks as she tries to open the door but I close it and take in her scent one more time.

Her body pressed to the door as I have my hands feel her up.

A moan escapes her lips when she feels my hard on and turn her around to look at me.

This was going to be difficult but I pull away from her and she calms down, which helps me to calm my wolf.

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Sabrina's POV

I watched Xander take a few steps back to create some distance between us and I was half relieved but the other half wanted to close that distance.

"I linked for a female pack doctor. She will try talk you through this but I need to leave. I need to leave right now." He says without meeting my eyes and I move out of his way as he walks out of his apartment and locks me in.

I sat down on the couch to check the camcorders on Adrastos and there he was sleeping. A knock interrupted me.

The door unlocked and a woman who looked to be just a little older than my dad walked in carrying a bag.

"Hello Sabrina. I'm doctor Karen and the alpha filled me in on your predicament." She says.

"Hello doctor." I say to her.

"To be honest, there's really not much I can do but I can administer some pain meds if you're in any pain? They will only help for a short time until the body rejects any and all ways except for sex." Doctor Karen tells me.

"I'm not in any pain. Just a crazy horny dog that's driving the alpha crazy." I say and she chuckles at my comment.

"Oh he's definitely going crazy. A woman's arousal during heat is irresistible Sabrina. Especially to an alpha. He might have the strength to fight it now but all males give in eventually." She tells me.

"Are all the men and boys of age camping outside?" I ask and she nods as she takes a seat beside me.

"Alpha's orders." She says. She looks at me like she wants to say something but doesn't.

"Just say it.." I say and she smiles at me sheepishly.

"I've been where you are. My mate was gone visiting a neighbouring pack when I got my first heat. I was in the hospital tending to patients from the last rogue attacks, so you can imagine a place full of

Male wolves and I got my heat." She says to me.

"I I mind linked my mate and he told me he had felt it and was in his wolf form running back. I knew it would take him at least 2 hours to get here so I snuck out and tried to meet him in the woods. I didn't get very far until one of the patrol wolves spotted me and could tell I was in heat. He took me right there in the woods and I let him. The relief he gave me was short lived and we did it again and again until my mate caught us in the act." She says as her eyes get glassy but she fights off the tears.

"My mate killed that man without a second thought. His anger dissipated as soon as my heat returned and he could not resist the scent I was giving off. We did it right there until I reached climax and passed out. He carried me back to our house and locked us in for 7 whole days." She says to me.

"Was he upset with you? About the other guy?" I ask and she shakes her head no.

"How could he be? I was in heat and he wasn't there. Sabrina, a woman in heat is like a rogue. Rogues need to kill for fun surpasses any other need. Well, for us shewolves, the need for relief surpasses any and all understanding. You will not be in your right mind. You will need that release Sabrina and I suggest you find it. Pick a Male and lock him inside your room, otherwise, you will be like me and give in to desires with a complete mated stranger." She says to me.

"I can't. I have only ever been with one man. I don't see myself with another." I say as memories of Max and I doing the dirty swim through my head. My heart breaks a little at the thought.

"The heat doesn't care if you are mated. The man that mounted me in the woods was mated. I was mated and I let him have me. The whole purpose of heat is to get pregnant and continue the wolf lineage. It won't stop until you find relief and I didn't even last a day." She says to me.

"I don't want to be pregnant. I have a newborn already!" I say and she chuckles at my reaction.

"Ahh that explains the alphas reasoning." She says.

"What reasoning?" I ask.

"I suggested he help you out and he mentioned you had too much on your plate already." She says and I stand up.

"You suggested? Xander wants to help me out?" I say and she smiles.

"In heat, our bodies don't care from who we get our relief from, as long as we get it but it seems like your wolf chose the alpha for the job. Unless I'm wrong and you've tried to seduce other males?" She ask looking up at me.

"No just the alpha. Goddess Athena!" I say out loud.

'What? I wanted to get it over with but you're too stubborn. Besides, if we do fall pregnant, I'd rather it be an alphas child.' Athena responds back to me and I roll my eyes.

"His wolf didn't exactly reject you and that's why I gave my suggestion. " she says.

I sit back down on the couch and run my hand through my hair.

"Look, you probably have a few hours before it gets unbearable so take that time to think about it." She says. She places some pain meds on the coffee table and gets up to leave.

"Wait!" I say and she turns to me.

"Can I take some contraception just in case I give in to these desires?" I ask her and she smiles.

"Your body will reject it. If you do give in to those desires, remember to have the guy pull out in time." She tells me but stops herself at the door.

"That will only give temporary relief though and will require more from the Male. It's still a mystery but even science can't figure out how the body knows the Male completed the mating inside the female. It's one of those things I just can't figure out." She says to me.

"Maybe I'll ask the moon goddess?" I say and she cackles at me.

"Good luck getting an answer." And she walks out and locking the door.

I decided to go take a shower and try sleep this horny feeling off. I walked into Xander's bathroom and I immediately fell in love. The shower could fit 10 and his bathtub was big enough for some cuddles. I got in the shower and remembered how I didn't bring any of my toiletries.

I had to use Xander's shower gel. His shampoo. His conditioner.

When got out, I had to use his body lotion.

Gosh I smelled like the man and it wasn't helping my problem.

I didn't have anything to wear but since I was all alone, I decided to sleep naked.

I felt hot. Really hot.

I got in to his king size bed of black soft sheets and tried to sleep.

Tried.

His scent was all over these sheets. I could smell him on me. I kept tossing and turning for what felt like hours, I finally gave in and decided to touch myself.

I tried thinking about Max but Athena was having none of it and kept throwing in her fantasies with Xander. The things he could do to me in this bed and that's when I lost it.

My one hand squeezing my left boob, as my right hand played with my lady parts. The thought of Xander dominating me on this bed. Ordering me around as my dom. His hand around my neck as he rams into me with insane force.

I feel a hunger so intense take over. A fire erupted in my body like a volcano and spread all over me. I was burning up with so much desire. Right now, I wanted relief and I want it now.

I threw off Xander's thin sheets and quickly stood up to run to the shower to cool off. A quick knock and the sound of the door opening had me freeze in place. The thought of a Male walking in here had me excited and also scared. I knew my body would deceive me the minute a Male stepped in to my view.

Myrtle appeared at the door holding out my phone.

"Your brother called.. he says that it is important and you need to call him back." She says to me but I ignore her and turn around to walk in the bathroom.

I jump in the shower and let the cool water cascade over me and I feel my body begin to cool down. The desire still there but my body wasn't burning up. I got out of the shower, dried myself and walked out of the bathroom naked again to find Myrtle sitting on Xander's bed.

She sees me come out and she stands up and hands my phone over to me.

"Your brother keeps calling. He says it's about Max." Myrtle said to me and my eyes bulge out.

"Oh shit why didn't you say so in the first place?!" I say to her as I dial my brothers number and wait for him to answer.

"Sabrina, you're in heat and Max is trying to find you. More like his wolf is. You know very well that your wolf will eventually call out to him and if she does, he will find you." He says to me.

"What are you trying to say Cj?" I ask but I already knew the answer. It's like what the doctor said.

"Unless you want him to find you, I suggest you find a decent wolf and end this. He's a threat to Adrastos Sabrina, he cannot find him." He says to me.

Guilt washes over me. I was so hell bent on not sleeping with anyone when I totally disregarded the fact that right now, Max could easily find me with our souls still bound to each other until we are both marked by another.

"You remember in school, how they would tell us about mates finding a way to each other through an invisible string that just pulls them together? That string is real and will lead Max to you." Cj says to me. I remain quiet.

"I'm sorry Sabrina but that's the way it is. I know this will be hard for you to deal with afterwards but you didn't run away, didn't just change your identity just to have him find you in a matter of days and threaten the life of your son once again." Cj says and I still remain silent.

"You don't have much time but think about it. I'm so sorry this is happening to you." He says and then the line goes dead.

I look up to Myrtle who gently grabs my hand and leads me to sit down on the bed.

"Look, I couldn't help but overhear. If you really don't want him to find you, you'll have to give in to the heat. Your scent has already wafted through this entire pack house, I believe by nightfall, our Male wolves will be going berserk with it." She says and I blink a few times to let what she just said sink in.

"You could smell my arousal?" I ask and she shakes her head no.

"No but Lucas could when we were in the kitchen. He told me and then ran out." She tells me.

Would I be able to do this? I mean yes I probably will but how will I feel after? I'd probably hate myself. I'd want to scrub myself clean.

So much for sacred law. My son isn't even a month old and I'm already on to the next alpha. I chuckle.

I'm a little hard on myself but with reason. When I gave myself to Max, I meant for life. I gave him all of me. He was my chosen mate so he would be the only man I'd ever be with.

"This is a nightmare. I know what I have to do but it will also ruin me." I say more to myself than at Myrtle.

"I'm sorry Sabrina. I can't even begin to imagine what you've been through." Myrtle tries to comfort me but it was no use. Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

"It's test after test. I can never catch a break. Just when I thought I would be free of Max, at least even for just a few months, a day doesn't even go by. I'm constantly at war with someone or something." I say and I was tired.

If I wasn't playing the hero to a pack, I was being a good mate even when they were undeserving.

Now I had to make a decision. It was already made to be honest but Myrtle didn't know that. If I do it, I can't turn back. There is literally no turning back.

"Please get Xander for me." I say and Myrtle's eyes bulge out at the mention of her alpha.

"I thought...well. I thought you weren't together?' Myrtle asks.

"We're not but my body seems to desire him more. Before it gets out of control and I have males trying to break the door down. Before I end up sleeping with a mated wolf and have the entire female population hate me, I'll take Xander." I say.

"But he's with Jade..well. You know what I mean." She says and I shrug.

"She already hates me and besides, they are not mated. Jade's mate is somewhere and when she meets him, she will quickly forget about her little infatuation with The Alpha." I say and Myrtle stays quiet.

I'm being judged already.

I stand up and quickly put my clothes on. Myrtle, still seated but watching my every move. I walk out of the bedroom once I'm fully dressed and little miss judgey follows me. I open the door to walk out,

"Wait! Do you think it is safe for you to be out?" Myrtle asked me.

"Well it seems I will have to get Xander myself and anyway, like you said, my scent is all over the pack house." I say and turn around quickly.

I quickly walk down the stairs, shewolves watching me and I open the door to see Xander and Lucas holding down a man. All the males watching.

They immediately freeze. Every Male standing outside right now sniffed the air and looked right at me. Clear hunger in their eyes as I took them all in.

Before they could all come running at me, I had roots come out from the ground and wrap around their ankles except for Xander. I looked at him as he was standing in place.

He looked around him and then at his own feet, then back at me. We stood there just looking at each other. He was probably trying to figure out what I was doing and I was hoping he'd get the point. He wasn't held against his will.

It finally hit me that he wanted me to say it. He would help me, he was probably dying from insane lust anyway but he wanted me to be sure about it. Goddess I wasn't sure. I just knew I didn't want Max

finding my boy.

"I need you.." I said in a whisper but he heard me.

One man was able to break the roots and started to run towards me but Xander caught on and ran too.

The man was too close and Xander wasn't too far away but the man was close.

Xander let out a ferocious, fearsome and oh so hot roar at the man. Who stopped running and showed his side of the neck in submission.

I was so turned on at this point. Xander got to me and stopped right in front of me,

"Are you sure?" He asked me and I didn't want to talk so I nodded my head, turned around and led him up the stairs to his apartment. I didn't want to look back or else I'd change my mind.

We got to his door to find Myrtle and Jade talking in hushed whispers but then stopped when we approached them.

Jade blocked the door and Xander growled.

"What is this alpha? You replacing me with the new whore already?" Jade asks and I was somewhat glad she picked a fight with Xander and not me.

Although I don't like to be called such degrading names. I guess it was fitting right now though.

"It isn't replacing you if we were never exclusive. I've slept with other women and you've never acted like this." Xander said.

"Oh I did! Just not at you." Jade said and Xander chuckled.

"I don't have time for this. Move out o of the way." Xander said in his alpha tone and Jade had no choice but to obey. He let me in before taking his room key from Myrtle and locking us in.

I didn't wait for him but walked straight to his bedroom and got naked.

When he walked in, he froze at my naked form before walking up to me.

"Want to get this over with? I like to take my time Sabrina. I was hoping to undress you myself." He says.

"Either you get naked right now or I'm breaking your door down and going to find another man to give me relief." I say with a stern voice.

He growled at my comment, which sent my body in to that burning hot hunger. Xander's eyes changed to his wolf's as he grabbed me by the neck and had his claws sink in to my neck.

A loud moan left my mouth as tingles erupted in my body. In that moment I only wanted Xander. I was his completely.

"You are mine now. I will explore every part of you and I will take my time but don't worry your pretty self, you're going to love it." He said to me in that husky voice again and I was a complete wet mess!

"You imprinted..." I say to him before his lips came crashing down on mine.